Good evening. God wants character that can have lengthy stays in lonely places.” – Pastor Michael Exum
When these words were spoken today, I was literally done. Pastor Exum spoke what I haven’t shared with anyone, ever. For a little while now, I’ve been struggling with relationships. Relationships, period. If someone wasn’t annoying me, they were boring me. If I reached out to someone, they pulled back in the opposite direction. Just problems with relationships all the way around. At some point, and though I can’t say when, I realized that I was indeed lonely. Lonely in a sense of being physically around people but not connecting with anyone on any level. I mean, I’ve shut down and shut out people before, but this was different. Countless of times in prayer, I’ve asked God, “What is it? What am I doing wrong?” Well, today, the answer was confirmed in more ways than I can count. – its not what I’m doing but rather it’s what God is doing in me.
Sometimes God just needs to get us alone. Sometimes, he just needs to get us in a place of no influence and little to no “noise” even if it means standing at the door alone in a crowed place or driving the distance without a single phone conversation. Regardless, its spiritually worth the human loneliness.
Now, I know in Genesis 2, The Bible says, its not good for man to be alone. But I also know that there is clarity and insight and creativity when being alone with God. Besides…most humans don’t want to know half of the things about you that God already knows! 
Peace – Kimberly
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