Hey! I can’t believe it’s been this long already. Normally when friends talk to me about losing someone, I typically tell them, from experience, that it takes me a full year (day by day) to accept the fact that that person is not coming back. Well…you have made me a liar because a part of me still wants to believe that your death is some cruel joke of yours or some unusually twisted technique to teach me a lesson. I remember walking up to your casket with Dimples, Bridg’s sister looking at you and thinking to myself this can’t be real. I was waiting for an outburst of laughter or a smile because you couldn’t hold the joke any longer. That never happended. It was definitnely reality and reality hurts.
A lot has happened in the last two years – some good, some bad. I’ve grown a lot and matured a lot spiritually. I took some time away from everybody…literally EVERYBODY. I know you’d fuss about me doing that, but I had to, and I can honestly say it helped. In each day, I rediscovered (and continue to rediscover) a bit more of myself and really entered into somewhat of an introspective phase. I’ll be the first to tell you that it wasn’t pretty.
I had an epiphany the other day that I’ve finally “got” this financial thing down. Nothing in particular happened but rather it was like God whispering to me, “You’ve got it!” It was pretty neat. I guess it’s been a while since I’ve had something confirmed right before my eyes. Guess I haven’t been paying attention, BUT I got it and it feels darn good.
I guess you’ve noticed that I’m back at MPC full time. Its good to be home. Actually it’s good to not dream about you almost daily which happened consistently until I did listen and adhere and return to MPC. It’s all good. Terri and I are in a good place. She won’t sell me your car just yet, but we’re still cool. A few other relationships have been restored as well. Speaking of Terri, you’ve got to be tickled. She’s like a little, walking, preaching, dynamite. It’s so powerfully and divinely cute. I know you’re proud.
I’ve been spending a lot of time at Coach and Bridgett’s in GA. It’s been good for me. For a while after you died, I couldn’t even look at Coach because I kept seeing you. It was tough, but after he hugged me and prayed with me prior to me leaving one night, things got better. The last time I was there, I literally only left the house maybe three times. It just felt good being there. There was a sense of closeness that I’d been missing that I felt the entire time I was there. What really put the icing on the cake was when Bray just started talking to me out of the blue. Weird right?
Hmmm let’s see. I’m about to move to Cleveland (yes again)! I’m actually looking forward to it this time. I work directly for DSU now so that has made community and campus life that much better. I do need one favor for you. While you’re up there chillin with the Big Guy, can you talk to him about the mosquitoes in Cleveland? 
Just kidding. It’s going to be a good move. Jahviah and Joey are helping me. Wesley is also but he just doesn’t know it yet :p
Dude, Angela and the praise team are “doin it.” OMG! Talk about a worship experience. I would have never in a million years put Angela on stage with a mic. It is AWESOME!
Before I go, I just want to say that I miss you. The older I get, I’m realizing that we have a lot of similiar traits, which could be a bad thing, but I’m going to chalk it up to being good. I’m becoming more and more stubborn. Oh and the liberty of not taking phone calls when I don’t feel like it is SO FRIGGIN GREAT. Haha. Seriously, you impacted me in ways that neither of us were aware of, and I couldn’t be happier that you did. We had some intense moments, but at the day’s end, we still loved and cared about each other.
This letter’s to you, Bishop. And Terri, this song’s for you. I love you.
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I love you, Bishop.
Kimberly
“Still With You” by Eric Benet
Heaven knows what you’ve been through
So much pain
Even though you can’t see
I’m not far away
We always say if one of us
Somehow went away
We’d light a candle and say a prayer
Know that love still remains
Close your eyes, go to sleep
Know my love is all around you
Dream in peace, when you wake
You will know I’m still with you
Live your life from this day on
And love again
I know you’d do the same for me
That’s the way that loves is supposed to be
Close your eyes, go to sleep
Know my love is all around you
Dream in peace, when you wake
You will know I’m still with you
When you feel those lonely teardrops
Rolling down your face
Just know my love watches over you
Always, always
Close your eyes, go to sleep
Know my love is all around you
Dream in peace, when you wake
You will know I’m still with you
I’m still with you
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Girl this is awesome, I am sitting here crying and like you I am not believing he is gone. Every Sunday I look for him to come through the doors. I really don’t know if reality has set in for me or not. I don’t know. My heart is still hurting but I know we have to move on, I know that God had him only here for a season. I just hate his season ended so soon. Well got to go now because I have started to crying and Bishop always got on to me about my emotions getting the best of me. I love you, Bishop. PS You would really be so proud of your wife, Pastor Terri she is an awesome wonder!