There is nothing more for me to say.

Peace – Kimberly

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the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to somethingthat is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, tosuch an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

Hey. Hey. Ease up. I’m working on it.  Kinda.

A lot has happened in the last two years – some good, some bad. I’ve grown a lot and matured a lot spiritually. I took some time away from everybody…literally EVERYBODY. I know you’d fuss about me doing that, but I had to, and I can honestly say it helped. In each day, I rediscovered (and continue to rediscover) a bit more of myself and really entered into somewhat of an introspective phase. I’ll be the first to tell you that it wasn’t pretty.

I had an epiphany the other day that I’ve finally “got” this financial thing down. Nothing in particular happened but rather it was like God whispering to me, “You’ve got it!” It was pretty neat. I guess it’s been a while since I’ve had something confirmed right before my eyes. Guess I haven’t been paying attention, BUT I got it and it feels darn good.

I guess you’ve noticed that I’m back at MPC full time. Its good to be home. Actually it’s good to not dream about you almost daily which happened consistently until I did listen and adhere and return to MPC. It’s all good. Terri and I are in a good place. She won’t sell me your car just yet, but we’re still cool. A few other relationships have been restored as well. Speaking of Terri, you’ve got to be tickled. She’s like a little, walking, preaching, dynamite. It’s so powerfully and divinely cute. I know you’re proud.

I’ve been spending a lot of time at Coach and Bridgett’s in GA. It’s been good for me. For a while after you died, I couldn’t even look at Coach because I kept seeing you. It was tough, but after he hugged me and prayed with me prior to me leaving one night, things got better. The last time I was there, I literally only left the house maybe three times. It just felt good being there. There was a sense of closeness that I’d been missing that I felt the entire time I was there. What really put the icing on the cake was when Bray just started talking to me out of the blue. Weird right?

Hmmm let’s see. I’m about to move to Cleveland (yes again)! I’m actually looking forward to it this time. I work directly for DSU now so that has made community and campus life that much better. I do need one favor for you. While you’re up there chillin with the Big Guy, can you talk to him about the mosquitoes in Cleveland? Just kidding. It’s going to be a good move. Jahviah and Joey are helping me. Wesley is also but he just doesn’t know it yet :p

Dude, Angela and the praise team are “doin it.” OMG! Talk about a worship experience. I would have never in a million years put Angela on stage with a mic. It is AWESOME!

Before I go, I just want to say that I miss you. The older I get, I’m realizing that we have a lot of similiar traits, which could be a bad thing, but I’m going to chalk it up to being good. I’m becoming more and more stubborn. Oh and the liberty of not taking phone calls when I don’t feel like it is SO FRIGGIN GREAT. Haha. Seriously, you impacted me in ways that neither of us were aware of, and I couldn’t be happier that you did. We had some intense moments, but at the day’s end, we still loved and cared about each other.

This letter’s to you, Bishop. And Terri, this song’s for you.  I love you.

I love you, Bishop.

Kimberly

“Still With You” by Eric Benet

Heaven knows what you’ve been through

So much pain

Even though you can’t see

I’m not far away

We always say if one of us

Somehow went away

We’d light a candle and say a prayer

Know that love still remains

Close your eyes, go to sleep

Know my love is all around you

Dream in peace, when you wake

You will know I’m still with you

Live your life from this day on

And love again

I know you’d do the same for me

That’s the way that loves is supposed to be

Close your eyes, go to sleep

Know my love is all around you

Dream in peace, when you wake

You will know I’m still with you

When you feel those lonely teardrops

Rolling down your face

Just know my love watches over you

Always, always

Close your eyes, go to sleep

Know my love is all around you

Dream in peace, when you wake

You will know I’m still with you

I’m still with you

Remember, the end is not where we learn the most, it’s the journey we take to get there. Even at our most uncertain times, the worse moment isn’t until we no longer have a chance to get it right. Where there is breath, there is fight. Never forget that. Stay the course.

Peace – Kimberly

Let me be transparent for a minute. ‘Detached’ is where I have been living lately. Some good, some bad. I’ll start with the bad cause I’m pretty sure that, by nature, that’s what most people want to hear. And for those in my same boat, maybe this is what they need to hear.

Have you ever been hurt so badly that though you forgave all wrong, you still put yourself in a place that you’re confident it won’t happen to you again? How can one be so confident of this you ask? Simple. You create a boundary and no one gets past that point. See. Simple. Well the disadvantage of doing so is that you limit fellowship; you limit interaction, and most importantly you MISS a whole wave of life itself. The chance to truly heal and reestablish and form new relationships come to a halt. You have yourself, and you have God, but you have no one to share the two with. There’s no chance of human touch because no one can get close to you. There’s no chance of sharing an experience because things of interest create questions, and questions require conversation and well you just don’t feel like talking. So, what gives? Detached.

The beautiful thing is that a new day is dawning. Get it right. Be open. Be free. If you need to make amends with someone, do it. If you need to come to terms with a situation that you have no control over, do it. If you need to forgive yourself and restore trust in yourself to take care of yourself, do it.

It’s seemingly easy to live a life of confinement and control, but its that much easier to live a life of love and freedom.

Peace – Kimberly

PS – This is how it feels to be free…

Peace – Kimberly

K.M. Cooley

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“For the first time
I can stand in front of someone
Finally
I can be me
I can just let my love spill over
I can cry
I don’t have to lie
I can finally let someone all the way inside”

peace – kimberly

Then it happens. Its 12:52am, and the phone rings. The caller is hundreds of miles away, but yet they feel what you’re going through as if they were lying next to you. They are not at peace because they feel in their spirit that you are not at peace. They know that you don’t need a sermon or a long drawn out conversation or prayer, but rather all you need is a simple, “sister, I gotcha.” In that very second, your world jump starts and begins to move again. That lump turns into breaths, your emotions cease, and your words are quickened as your heart shouts praises. Suddenly you’re living again!

Now, by me sharing this, I am not saying that we don’t need God or prayer. But I am saying that though we need those things, sometimes we need them delivered differently and that God, himself, delivers them differently. Too often we get caught up in the traditional methods of healing or ministry. When things happen, we feel that we have to get to a physical place with a physical altar on a particular day to pray or receive our healing. But what happens when its midnight and you can’t get to an altar? You’re in bed and you’re breathing, but you can’t move? Throughout Christ’s ministry, there were times when He went to heal; there were times when those that needed healing came to Him, and then there were times that he sent forth His disciples to heal. He met the needs of His people by meeting the needs of His people.

That caller this morning was under the direction of the Holy Spirit, and I cannot put into words what it means to have people in your life that move when God tells them to move and how to move. I could have easily called on others and sought out advice and got the, “if I were you’s” and the “I would do this” conversations, but that’s the thing. They are not me, and that’s not how God planned this thing out!

Ya’ll I’m not getting so spiritually deep that I’m spiritually deep, but this is real! Its experiences like these that will forever keep me sharing with you about the importance of having the right people close to you. God has placed them there for specific reasons and specific seasons. They may not know what your specific needs are, but they do know that if they seek God and move by His Spirit, they absolutely canNOT go wrong! To be honest, I’d rather the person(s) who has my back be closer to God than closer to me, and THAT’s real talk! Thanx, B!

One love – kimberly

K.M. Cooley

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“It’s about being open to the moment and not manipulating it, and trusting that you may not know where to go.”…Ed Harris

one love – kimberly

p.s. – for those of you that push me…MUA!

One love – kimberly

K.M. Cooley
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